I'm Alive

I am alive. I did not fall in the toilet and drown, I did not move away, or get kidnapped. I don't hate you, and am not mad at you!
That is in response to all of the texts and emails, that I have not been replying to. I normally talk,talk,talk. Lately, I have had a lot on my mind, and a lot going on, and talking about it, isn't getting me anywhere.
I have become a Spray Paint Queen. I no longer look at things as what they are, but what they can "become" and have gone on a spray painting SPREE. I find it rather theraputeic, but Nick wants to kill me. I did this once when I was younger when my mother bought me a "BeDazzler". After all of my clothes looked like minature versions of Elvis Pressley's Vegas Years, I regretted it. I also did this once with pink and green in my room. After a few months, it looked as though Lily Pulitzer vomited her Spring '02 collection all over my room. I deeply regretted this as well.
I am sure Nick wont let me regret the spray painting wicker and old furniture phaze that I am going through. Plus, the fumes are starting to make me sick. I did, however purchase stencils for my daughters room. Oooooh,La,La............
Thursday my daughter became very ill (not from my paint fumes) and I had to leave work early (if looks could kill) and pick her up. I could have left her with my mother and gone back to work, but I wanted to be with my child when she was sick. That's why it broke my heart that she had to go to her dad's Saturday. I can't get off of work for Spring Break, so she goes to stay with her father and his mother comes over while he works. It works out well, but this time I was more sad than usual. She started out with a fever of 102 degree tem. Threw up once, wouldnt eat, and just slept. By Friday she was at 104, and the doctor couldn't tell what was wrong.He ran test after test,strep,flu,pee,blood...I was balling inside, but staying strong, because she was. All she kept saying is,"I'm not sick, just sleepy". She didn't want to be treated like a "baby" and was soooo kind and gentle natured throughtout it all. Nick could learn a lil something from her behavior when she is sick, compared to his. I hate that she is away from me right now. Needless to say, I am NOT enjoying ONE second of our "vacation" away from each other. I would rather be ssured that she is having a great time, so that I can do.
So, it's not that I don't want to talk to you all lovely ladies, I love y'all. It's just that I do not want to talk. I'll have a ton to talk about later,I'm sure.
Hope y'all are having a great week, can't wait to get away from these "Home Decor" websites, to catch up on my blog reading. lol