He does sound like a dick, doesn't he? He wasn't always. He HAS however always been a two-timer, but he was a good friend to me in very important times in life.
I told him that I am busy with Andrea's dance schedule, and that he can meet me at Target, b/c I have to do some shopping, but I only have an hour. He said he was busy at that time and asked what other times I was availible. I said..."only in the a.m, but that is when I go to the gym. You can work out with me if you would like to! He said "what about breakfast?" I said" well I suppose a short breakfast would work, but I am very busy, and can't drive too far. I can meet you at Southpark (30 minutes for each of us) at 7:30pm tomorow. I have to be at the gym by 8:30. He said "that sounds great". He hasnt been in town in years, either he will party too hard tonight to make it, or I will cancel. I am not giving into him. Nothing would happen, but I dont need to hear him talk about"what if's" and make me feel bad, when I drive away, once again, all alone,unwed-as "the girl you wished you would have married if only she were the marrying type".
Did I mention to yall that LAST week, a guy named Jason, who I totally screwed up with (he was a country boy with a big heart,I was a city girl with way too much to do) found me on facebook (created a profile to talk to me)....only to tell me that he had been having dreams about me. He was unhappily married and he still had a box in the garage of all of our special stuff ! (movie stubbs, pics,etc)
Jason stayed in the "friend zone " with me for years. He was adorable, very masculine, but was "too sweet". HE confessed his love for me in a letter,4 years after we had been hanging out (never even kissed) . He bought me a diamond necklace and I gave it back, telling him that I couldnt accept.....and I knew he deserved better.
Well, he didnt get better. He got a cheating wife, and I am now kicking myself, as he is going to marriage couseling.
Once again........."the girl you wished you would have married " but this time "if only she were a lil bit smarter and less into herself at the time".
What is God trying to tell me here, as I go home to my Nick, the guy who thinks that I should feel "grateful" to have him?
I appreciate ALL of your $.0.2!!!!!!!!!
Did I tell y'all that Andrea told me that the kid who brought the most pennies in today got a pancake???? She wanted like $3.00 worth of pennies. I tried to give her cash and she told me that wasnt good enough. Ha!!!!!
That seems sooo unfair!!!! Really!
Passing The Baton
1 year ago
Hmmmm...I got nothin' on this one. Follow your heart...or maybe that's a bad idea, too. I don't know???
ReplyDeleteP.S. Nick should be grateful to have YOU!!!
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