Let me try this...um..."I'm a redneck WOMAN" yehaw???? Believe me? GOOD!

Nick found a house in Dallas! Not Dallas, Texas...not not that sophisticated. Dallas, NC!!! I don't know if many of you have heard about GASTON COUNTY, or ever heard of GASTONIA, NC...but if you haven't, you are missing much, besides a few good laughs.Dallas, NC is on the border of Gastonia.

Ahhh, Gastonia! Where "Sweet Home Alabama" plays loudly as though the residents might somehow really believe that they live in Alabama, because they are so drunk that they dont know where or who they are from drinking BUSCH beer since they dropped out of 2nd grade. Where Dental work is done with pliers,The Flea Market is like Rodeo Drive,and people bleed SUNDROP! I have not heard of many people make it out of Gastonia and onto "greener pastures",well accept Jamie Pressley, who can probably credit her believable role of "JOY" on MY Name Is Earl, to living in this town,and knowing a few "Joy's" in her time!

You just dont know a redneck unless you travel to Gastonia!And who doesn't think they know one or two?

Well, obviously Nick doesnt. Charlotte is growing soooo rapidly that many of it's Natives,move to the outskirts,and Dallas has not developed too rapidly,land is cheap,and it's only around 20 miles North of downtown Charlotte, so Nick and many of his co-workers have set their eyes on this area!

(Note: This being the reason Gastonia now has a Pier 1 and a Panera Bread. Natives of the GAS HOUSE, know nothing of either)

Well, my lovely Nick found us a darling houseplan and has picked up the necessary paperwork today to start construction.....oh, if he only changes his mind. I love the house, I love the neighborhood and land,and more than anything, I'd love to move before Nolan arrives, but............. do I know what I am getting myself into. That is the question! Oh, or "does he". Nick likes to Fish...I think he thinks that is redneck enough to fit in...boy does he have another thing coming.LOL

All I need to do to fit in (like I care to try), is bake at the tanning bed,get a few cup sizes bigger in implants,and walk around barefoot in the yard with a baby on my hip (oh and acrylic nails and Marlboro Lights)...Nick, he is in a world of a surprise. How funny!

Next time I get asked "What animal would you be" I am going to say "BEAR"!

Ha Ha, I just lost a follower or too! That's funny,bc I dont write much, but I am sure it had something to do with the "I dont like outsourcing" Blog. Sorry, I dont. I dont like old drivers,either.IF you're physically unable to put your foot on the gas hard enough to go over 25,or cant SEE THE SPEED LIMIT, your liscense should be revoked! If that statement pisses you off,feel free to "stop following" also. Good riddens! :)
Anywho, back to the topic. If someone ever asks (which I don't know why they would) "if you could be any animal,what would it be?" ever again, I will think twice before saying"a tiger...RARRRR" in my sexy voice,ever again!!! I will instead answer.."A BEAR!".
Why a bear? Because they hybernate! Cold weather and during PREGNANCY, that is what they DO ! I cant really sleep right now, but BOY IF I COULD! I love babies, but I don't like pregnancy all that much, but I love sleep.I dont dig cold weather,ecspecially in the Carolinas (ppl cant drive if an inch of snow meets the ground and flood the grocery stores like Hurrican Hugo is going to hit again)..I'd def sleep through that if I could. Oh,yeah!

Monday Tirades

Okay, this makes me sound VERY rude,and small minded,and "politically incorrect", but you have to excuse me. I'm from the south andI either dont know any better,or am too backwards to fake that I care! (as any one who even TRIES to argue this,does)
I am soooooooooooooo sick of the companies that I chose to buy products from,outsourcing their CUSTOMER SERVICE jobs to other countries. Sprint,and now HP!!! If I am having a problem with my computer, to the point where I am calling and waiting on the phone for 30 minutes....I WANT TO UNDERSTAND THE PERSON WHO I EVENTUALLY GET A CHANCE TO TALK TO!!!!
....who are the companies REALLY thinking about when they outsource these jobs? We all know it isn't the well being of the prospects wanting employment, but .....are they thinking about their customers either?

Baby, I'm BACK!

<----This a picture of my big preggo belly! I am in the pantry at Nicks momma's house. I dont like taking preggo pics because I am vain and superficial,so this may be as good as it gets for a while. :D

So much has happened recently, that I do not know where to begin!

I'm having a boy named "Nolan Grey" in early March. So excited!

Andrea is losing all of her teeth, or so it seems and is trying to take all of my money for them. What the heck am I gonna do for these teeth. Whoever came up with the idea of a tooth fairy, had a money tree,and a slight case of lunacy!

I lost my job...but whatever. I get UNEMPLOYMENT, along with half of the town I live in,and I cant think of a better time,than when you are pregnant as all get out,and cant sleep. Or when you have a beautiful newborn....and cant sleep.

BTW...What's up with the pregnancy induced insomnia? Really. I read somewhere that it is your body's way of getting you prepared for the loss of sleep when you have a newborn. Really? How freakin' nice!!! I personally dont like the way my body "tells" me things that far into the future. That's like giving old people constant mini-strokes to "prepare" them for the real thing. Um......."no thanks"!

Oh...and the same goes for the Braxton Hicks "practice" contractions that are so intense that you almost wet yourself. I can do without...and I am sure the triage nurses at the Maternity wards could too.

Anywho......what was I saying (pregnancy brain....as if I wasnt flighty enough)

Oh....I lost my job, but make out better, because of travel expenses and also because I am .....ABLE TO GO BACK TO COLLEGE!!!! Yay! I am taking the courses needed to start nursing school and I AM FREAKIN' ECSTATIC!!! I'll tell you more about this later.

But anyways, I wanted to update ya, like you really cared. You will be hearing from me a lot in the near future! Muah!!!!

Baby Names

I need ideas for boys and girls. I know,I know...I have 5 months, but time FLIES! So.....any ideas?

Food Baby

I am f**king BLOATED, as hell today. This is retarded! Not in a good,Fergie way-RETARDED IN A REALLY strange way that does not make sense. I do not recall feeling this way with Andrea, at all. I didnt show until I was 4 months. Now...I am 6 weeks, Ive gained like almost 10 pounds and need maternity pants. WTF!
It's okay that I gained 10 pounds. I needed to gain at least 5, and then my jugs probably weigh 3 pounds each right now. Plus, Im supposed to gain like 5 pounds this trimester, so the way I look at it, it's okay. I still looked okay in my gym clothes.........that was UNTIL I swelled up in my abdomen like a pissed blowfish! OMG, this blows!
My doctor is a perv. I mean I can't prove he is a perv, but Nick got a strange vibe (which he thinks all male gynecologists are pervs) and then I know a few ppl who went to him. If the general concensous is that he is a freak-show, and he gave me the creeps, then I think I need to switch docs. He looks like a gay cross between Mr.Bean and PeeWee Herman. Eww
My skin and hair are kinda gross right now. I shower and all, but honestly, I dont see the point if I am going to have mid-day oil slick, what the HELL is that doing for my baby?Really? Shouldnt my body be storing this for lube for the day I deliver? Gross, I know-but I am just saying.
On a lighter note, Andrea comes back on Friday and I am stoked. I miss my lil munchkin! God, do I!!! I just want her prescence to be felt in the air. Life is soooo dull without her.
I want to tell her, but I think I should wait. But then again, I dont know. If I had a miscarriage, that would be a lot for her to handle, but I am overly eager to see the joy on her face, and count down with her.
By the way, Im dressing UBER tacky!~

No More Baby Blues

Although I am not prepared (in the least) I am expecting a second child in March! (explains my "moodiness") I am scared,exited, and shocked-all at the same time!

So........hear is some "Free Advice" : Don't always believe your doctors. When they tell you that you may have to have invetro, remember that GOD has more control over those things, and will prove them wrong, probably just for giggles (warm,fuzzy, "I know what's best" giggles)

WOW!

It has been over a month since I have written! Wow, where has my mind been? I have "facebooked" myself out, but have not had one thing that was "good" enough to put into words, or so I thought. At this point, I am just going to write how I feel about random things.

It may be a big pile, but "hey, it is what it is". My thoughts are kind of jumbeled up lately!

Okay, so my daughter is gone to her fathers. I miss her TERRIBLEY, and have finally stopped crying. I wanted to save money while she was gone, but I didnt.....actually I am BEHIND on my bills. I swear, it's really sad, because I have nothing to show for it but a gut,love handles, and a cup size.

Thanks to all of the icecream that I have eaten.

I miss her, but I have a lil more time to save, if I stick to a budget (ugly word) before she gets home.

Having your child go on vacation may seem relaxing, but its really bittersweet. Really (duh)

I cut all of my hair off and it is what it is. I am not happy about it, but it feels like a weight is lifted off of my shoulders, and is actually a lil easier to maintain.

Michael Jackson died, (incase you have been hybernating). I have looked at a lot of people really differently since this incident. Okay, we know that he was a few sandwiches away from a picnic. Okay, he pretty much was just the basket and a bottle of water, and a few crumbs from years ago....but still. I feel soooo bad for him. I really thought (even during the trial) that he was a lost, tortured soul, that had bonds with children and animals because those were the only things he could trust, and he was right. Look how we (the media) scrutinized him. I just dont feel right about pointing the finger in blame when the WHOLE world is doing the same, and my heart tells me that there was more. I could be wrong, and for those who have said "and OJ is innocent, too-right". No, absolutly not (at least I dont feel that way). OJ didnt display the strange types of behavior that MJ did to make you believe that he had the mind of someone who was not BAD, but lost. OJ was angry, but I dont think that MJ was a molester, I think he was taken advantage of. What parent dangles there children in front of someone in question for millions? And you all saw him on the interview. He didnt think there was anything wrong with sleeping in the bed with his "friends". Not that it is right, but I think he was naive.The parents werent. Harm my child, and no money (although Id take that TOO) would be enough! Your ass would get locked up, before you could ever harm another soul.

Farrah Fawcett died as well (so did a few other celebrities, such as Ed Mcmahn (ms),etc). I didnt know anything about her, and was not a fan (I did looove her hair though) but her personal story was very touching. I cried the WHOLE entire time.

My job is driving me looney. Not "my job" but many of the people. It is like I am damned if I do,damned if I dont. I love many of the subs, and like some of the people I work with, but I swear, the economy is soooo bad, that many of the calls thatI get are soooooo ridiculous. I cant help but to feel angry when I get them, but afterwards,at night, I am struck with guilt and compassion for these people. Many of them have to call us LIKE CRAZY asking RANDOM questions about ANY jobs, even ones they dont know the names of and I cannot direct them to the right people bc they are as desperate for work as you can be, and I thank the LORD that I am not in that place. I need to ACT more compassionate instead of like a little snot, because that could be me and my child, and God knows that I would have it worse off than they do.

My parents are facing homelessness right now, and while I feel soooo guilty, they have made decisions time and time again that have led them to this place (my mother had a job last year and she quit because they made her sweep..............OMG). My poor dad is trying sooo hard, and would never ask me for a penny. But my mother hints, and makes me feel bad. I have paid bills for them in the past and right now, I cant-so............I dont know whether to change my numbers or deal, bc any time that I talk to my mom, it is the same thing, and although I tell her that I cant deal with it, she calls me, and weasels how bad is it into the conversation. Like I said, I want to help, I really do. It kills me not to, but I have my own family to take care of now, and I dont know how much longer I will be on my feet. The future is uncertain!

I am taking college courses soon to get my feet headed in the right diretion. I look at paralegal jobs and I make more than they do, without a degree, but I think its the "education" that I need, so *wish me luck*

Sorry if this wasnt "uplifting". Ill try in a few days ;)

Burritos and pajamas

I am really sad that I cannot workout. I am sooo packing on the pounds and on top of that, am getting really tired and anemic feeling, and they say that exercsing is BAD for Anemia but GOOD FOR everything else.OOOOOOOh, how contradictory!

I am loving some FAKE-mexican food lately. I really dont like real mexican, its tastes dirty to me, but FAKE mexican (like Quodoba and On The Border) Ahhh. love them~!

Anyone have any tips on how to raise my iron REALLY quick so that I can get into the gym???? It would be greatly appreciated!

I am a "thin Cyster" Get it...Sister, Cyster? Bahahahhhha! ok-not really

I told myself that I would not be a blogger who blogs about one topic all of the time, and expects for people to give a rats ass. I am sure you all dont really want to read about the same damn thing everyday, right??? Ok, well....from the looks of things, you do. I know I do. I didnt think I did, but I keep going back to read about a woman who mostly writes about Renovating Her Brooklyn Limestone for ideas. It was refreshing to find out that Infertile Myrtle doesnt always talk about infertility, and her blogs are pretty amazing. I have already written about my stupid health problems (God knows that I feel like an old bat talking about them) but the more I read about my disease/problem,thorn in my side...whatever you want to call it, the more I want to share the news, and maybe helped and be helped by other women who have it.
I have told you before that I suffer from P.C.O.S.
Doctors still dont know much about P.C.O.S and if you find a doctor wo does, he/she is worth moe than her weight in Gold, really.
I read about P.C.O.S two years ago, and knew that it was what was wrong with me. I actually "stumbeled upon" this name while reading a Womens Health mag. I went to see doctor after doctor, even some of the "best" in my area. The last visit I had from a OBGYN "specialist" told me..."you are too thin to have P.C.O.S, and the hairs arent prominent enough". REally, lady....I am sorry that I have to tweeze every morning, and hd work today before coming in. If that had not been the case, I would have grown a full beard to prove it to you!" The thought of doing that, or the fact that my body could POSSIBLY (I dont know, never tried) do that...makes me want to cring and cry at the same time. Like I said, I have never gone a day without tweezing, so I dont know what could happen, but I do know that it is NOT normal. My boyfriend can tell you.
Truth be told, that in order to be diagnosed with P.C.O.S, you only need three symptons. You may not be overweight, you may not even have cysts, all you need are three underlying symptoms, and going to see a doctor who knew her shit, was well worth it to me!
I dont want to become pregnant again. I have no urge to ever mother another child. Its not that I dont love children, I do...its just that I realize how hard being a parent is, and I worry about and have such a bond with my daughter that I dont ever want to share that. I know that if I were to have more children, that it would come naturally to me, but I just can't imagine not playing favorites with her, even though...like I said, I am sure Id love them equally.
I understand how painful it must be to be told that you CANT have children though. I love not always having my period and not having to worry with birth control, but I understand that to many women, this is a curse, not a perk!
I tried to take birth control for these painful cysts, and it was hell. Id rather be in pain. (by the way, Andrea was a miracle. All children are, but she was sent down to me because I asked, over and over. I didnt want to have more than one child, I just wanted one girl. I wanted her so bad, at a young age, because I think sub-conscoulsly....I knew that she would save me, and that she would be the only person who could teach me how to love unconditionally.She did! Like I said...I learn more from her than she does from me. I could teach her 15 different languages and she could be a math wiz at 8, but still-I learned more from her by the time that she turned 2, than any teacher could EVER teach her.)
Anyways back to what I was saying, many women are concerned about this disease because of the problems it causes trying to become pregnant. I, however am more shallow, and only concerned about the physical effects that it has, and the pain that it causes.
I have taken Metformin, Spironolatone,etc, and have had terrible side effects. Does anyone else want to share theirs?